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this is gonna be a long thread. none of you probably care, but i'm probably never going to release a game again. this isn't because of stress like the last time, but pure demotivation.
part of it is "skyminer bad" mentality, and part of it is that i've been on this server for 5+ years of my life at this point. just to give that some scope, when i joined this server, i was 11. in may, i turned 16. i've spent a large portion of my life placing code blocks on this server.
enough about me and my life, let's get to my problems with diamondfire and why i don't enjoy it anymore.
back in may, i had a mental breakdown. this was the period where i cleared cactus king, gave my major plots away, etc. some of it was my struggles with moderation, some of it was the struggles of being as known of a figure on this server as i am, and some of it was external parts of my life and my own underlying mental problems.
but it made me realize that i wasn't really playing diamondfire for myself anymore. so a few days later, i started a project that i had tried to make several times before, but had always fallen flat on it's face. i started "VAST", an MMORPG game based on exploration, similar to hypixel skyblock. for a couple of weeks, i enjoyed working on this game, but i had began to face large spikes of demotivation. and that was due to the community's behavior nowadays of hopping from game to game without really taking the time to understand a more intricate game.
this basically happened a few times over, with me helping with LooserRIP's LAPGC4 game, to other failed projects of mine, and then finally i gave up and decided to keep updating Cactus King, the one game of mine that the community still cared about. sure enough, every time a new game comes out, Cactus King is overshadowed. this is understandable since the game is so old, but it's still demotivating to release a large update and then have people, y'know, care about it for a day and then move on to the next new game.
don't take this rant as me quitting; we'll see what happens. i just wanted to vent out my frustrations with what feels like an endless cycle of demotivation at this point. i've been focusing a lot of my time on things outside of diamondfire lately, and i've been enjoying myself a lot more. i'll probably be less active, but again, who knows. maybe my motivation could come back again and i'll make Cactus King 3 and the cycle will repeat again. one thing is for sure though, if i do anything on the server, it's gonna be for my own enjoyment, and not the community's satisfaction.
- sluds
part of it is "skyminer bad" mentality, and part of it is that i've been on this server for 5+ years of my life at this point. just to give that some scope, when i joined this server, i was 11. in may, i turned 16. i've spent a large portion of my life placing code blocks on this server.
enough about me and my life, let's get to my problems with diamondfire and why i don't enjoy it anymore.
back in may, i had a mental breakdown. this was the period where i cleared cactus king, gave my major plots away, etc. some of it was my struggles with moderation, some of it was the struggles of being as known of a figure on this server as i am, and some of it was external parts of my life and my own underlying mental problems.
but it made me realize that i wasn't really playing diamondfire for myself anymore. so a few days later, i started a project that i had tried to make several times before, but had always fallen flat on it's face. i started "VAST", an MMORPG game based on exploration, similar to hypixel skyblock. for a couple of weeks, i enjoyed working on this game, but i had began to face large spikes of demotivation. and that was due to the community's behavior nowadays of hopping from game to game without really taking the time to understand a more intricate game.
this basically happened a few times over, with me helping with LooserRIP's LAPGC4 game, to other failed projects of mine, and then finally i gave up and decided to keep updating Cactus King, the one game of mine that the community still cared about. sure enough, every time a new game comes out, Cactus King is overshadowed. this is understandable since the game is so old, but it's still demotivating to release a large update and then have people, y'know, care about it for a day and then move on to the next new game.
don't take this rant as me quitting; we'll see what happens. i just wanted to vent out my frustrations with what feels like an endless cycle of demotivation at this point. i've been focusing a lot of my time on things outside of diamondfire lately, and i've been enjoying myself a lot more. i'll probably be less active, but again, who knows. maybe my motivation could come back again and i'll make Cactus King 3 and the cycle will repeat again. one thing is for sure though, if i do anything on the server, it's gonna be for my own enjoyment, and not the community's satisfaction.
- sluds